Lucky loser, fortunate failure

Tired, to tired to fall asleep
Energy drained, too busy life
Bored, so bored, no challenge left
Braincells are you still alive

Shattered dreams, lost arrogance
Where pride meets humility
Ego wants appreciation or admiration
Is there a difference in this society

Always have to be the best
There's no room for humbleness
Urgent need to climb the ladder
Meanwhile only feeling restless

This world is so fucked up
People are just crazy and mad
Chasing hollow shallow dreams
Heartbrake, crying, oh so sad

Tired, to tired to fall asleep
Energy drained, too busy life
Bored, so bored, no challenge left
Braincells are you still alive

Exhaustion or just laziness
Champion of procrastination
Overthinking is the brake
Fleeing in easy distraction

So got stuck, just bad luck
Talents meet no opportunities
Personal lack of ambition
Because of non worldly priorities

Check, then be called a loser
So when failure is the name
Yes guilty en so stupid
How to deal with the shame

Tired, to tired to fall asleep
Energy drained, too busy life
Bored, so bored, no challenge left
Braincells are you still alive

Wait, wait, is there something else
Something worthwile for sure
Really can be a lucky loser
Feel like a fortunate failure

Do not let the world define
But choose own paths and ways
Always be steered by Love
Let Holy Spirit set the pace

In the face of death what happens
Hang on to the family or things
Work, work or time with friends
Play with the dog so the heart sings

Tired, to tired to fall asleep
Energy drained, too busy life
Bored, so bored, no challenge left
Braincells are you still alive

The best thing to leave behind
Is to be kind always, always
Don't judge, but rather help
Remember the loving days

All equally beloved all the time
Can't be earned, can't be lost
That's where we come from
Don't get the wires crossed

Worthy just because it's true
No matter what's been said or done
Inner Peace through these storms
And then we put the repeat on

And on and on, and on and on..
And on and on, and on and on..
And in the meantime cuddle the cat
Because its purring is the best med

Tired, to tired to fall asleep
Energy drained, too busy life
Bored, so bored, no challenge left
Braincells are you still alive

Heartcries

 Once there was a day I lived in complete darkness.

I drowned in loneliness, in an ice cold emptiness.

I hated the world and myself most of all.

There was nothing worth living for, nothing at all.

I didn't want to be who I was, not being me.

I tried real hard to be like I thought I needed to be.

I ran and hid myself so deep en so far away.

That even myself didn't know anymore my own natural way.

But suddenly in that pitch black darkness there was a light.

And that sparkle became a flood so warm and bright.

And the peace pealed of my cover, bit by bit.

And I saw myself and it's okay, this is it.

Piece by piece was put together what was broken.

Healed and forgiven all that was left unspoken.

Never, never, ever again have I felt that way.

My life was saved, thank God I'm here today.

I'm grateful for my life, Lord, because You gave it to me.

For all that I have, all that I am and all that You want me to be.

Whenever I'm down, You raise me up.

When I'm empty, Your love will fill me up.

When I'm lost, You show me the right direction.

When I want to give up, You push me to take action.

When I'm weary, You slow my pace.

Everything seams clear, whenever I search Your face.

 

Purpose of your life

Being really smart is not a ticket to success.

 Being real gifted is not an easy way to happiness.

 Being real smart doesn't necessarily mean you're also wise.

 But being different can sometimes cost you a huge price.

 There's loneliness in being an unusual way.

 There's shame in throwing your gifts away.

 Despite your wits you don't seem to be able to choose the right priority.

 And all it leaves you with is an unbearable sense of inferiority.

 You lose yourself through denial, in order of adaptation.

 But at the bottom of the well, there's Gods salvation.

 The true value of life is not in what you earn, but in what you do.

 It's not about being seen, but seeing the other one too.

 It is not in what you have, but in what you give.

 It's what's in your heart that defines the right way to live.

 No human should feel better, but also no lesser, than the next one.

 Because it's not about yourself, but all about what He is and has done.

 Only He knows what's in my heart en in my mind.

 But still...... He loves me, my Lord, You're so kind.

  

Gift or curse.....

Hopelessly tangled up in ordinary life
Where's the dept? I want, I need to dive
Thoughts running around like crazy
I come to nothing, but to being lazy
Frantically searching for possibilities
Finding nothing but impossibilities
Intrinsic motivation banging it's head against the wall
While inside screaming at this urgent call
Gasping for air in an oxygen low environment
How high may I built on the true fundament?
Healed wings still not being able to fly
Just purposeless muddling around and sigh
If challenge is needed to excel and healthy wellness
How to fit it in with serving humbleness?
While living feels just like surviving
Frustration is growing and joy is dying
Lord, please bring Your balance in my sight
Cause Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light